Here’s what I do know: When you want something very badly, so much so that you can actually see it sitting in your hands when your imagination looks down, then it will be. When I’m most in tune with the world around me, I easily perceive the signs pointing me in the right direction, toward the next goal. With that belief, that knowledge in mind, I embark on this blogging journey. [Read more...]
Friday, December 30, 2011
My 2nd Blogiversary
Here’s what I do know: When you want something very badly, so much so that you can actually see it sitting in your hands when your imagination looks down, then it will be. When I’m most in tune with the world around me, I easily perceive the signs pointing me in the right direction, toward the next goal. With that belief, that knowledge in mind, I embark on this blogging journey. [Read more...]
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Life Storms and Silver Linings
A few weeks ago, I found myself in the eye of an F2 life storm. I'd woken in the night with a headache, which I often do. A glance at the clock told me it was only one in the morning, so I knew I needed to pop a few Tylenol or I'd have monster head pain by morning. So I got up and went to the kitchen for some pills.
The events that followed are hazy in my memory. I remember being hit by a sudden and violent wave of nausea, and I knew I was going to be sick right then and there. The next thing I remember, I was sitting up from the kitchen floor in a pool of vomit. I had passed out.
I was disoriented but not panicked. You see, my whole life I've suffered from the Vasovagal Response, which means my heart slows down when I'm subjected to certain stimuli, such as needles and blood, and my brain doesn't get enough oxygen. When it happens, I pass out. I've lost consciousness many times; passing out is familiar to me. But throwing up? That's extremely rare for me. So in my disoriented state, I was only concerned about the mess I'd made on the kitchen floor. I cleaned it up before going back to bed.
I still felt very nauseous, and I woke my husband up to tell him I was sick. Apparently I didn't tell him I'd passed out. He looked at his clock and saw it was two o'clock in the morning. Between two and five a.m., I vomited four more times. But at five, an alarming new symptom arose. I was losing blood and fluid from my right ear. Time to panic.
My husband recalls I said, "Maybe I hurt my ear when I fell." By telling him I'd passed out he had the missing piece to the puzzle, and five minutes later he was helping me dress.
The ER physician could see I'd ruptured my right ear drum. He ordered a CAT scan to determine whether the trauma had caused internal injuries. That's when I learned I'd fractured my skull.
The big question was why I'd vomited and passed out in the first place. An EKG showed I have an irregular heartbeat, something called Long QT Syndrome. I was admitted into the hospital for observation and spent the following twenty-four hours hooked up to a cardiograph.
After a night with no crazy heart activity, I was discharged. Thank goodness. Anyone who has ever been in the hospital knows it's no place for a person to rest and heal. Under the watchful care of my husband and kids, I'm doing better every day, and right after Christmas I meet with an ENT and a cardiologist to determine what longer-term treatment, if any, I need.
So, what was the silver, writerly lining to this life storm? I now know firsthand what it's like to be treated in an emergency room - the pain of having to move when you're injured and sick, the fear of needles that prod and test, the different bedside manners of doctors and nurses. I had a CAT scan. I now know the cold environment of that ominous, humming machine, and the unease one feels being fed head-first into its tunnel-like mouth. I also had a sonogram of my heart. That was cool! My heart looked so graceful, the valves opening and closing with the rhythmic grace of a jellyfish hover-swimming through the ocean depths.
When I was transported for the sonogram, my wheelchair was pushed through the hospital by a stoic nurse. When we passed through the wide, automatic doors of the cardiac ward, we headed down a door-lined corridor. It was perfectly silent; I couldn't even hear the rubber-soled steps of the woman slowly pushing me. On either side of the corridor, there were patients in wheelchairs just like me. Each had been draped with a white blanket around the shoulders, right under their chins, just like me. They sat motionless, one chair parked behind the next. Waiting. It was a chilling sight, an image Stephen King would have a field day with. Suddenly my chair stopped next to the wall a few feet from a door. I heard the nurse engage the brake. From behind me, she said, "We're here. Hope you get to feelin' better." And then she turned and left me there with the other silent ones. Eerie.
Life is a stormy place. But like the characters we write about, we need to brave those storms in order to learn, grow, and evolve. So when the next storm brews on your horizon, pray for strength to get through it. Open your eyes and heart in readiness for the lessons to come. And, grab your pen.
Friday, December 16, 2011
Deja vu Blogfest
It's been six days since my accident and I'm healing slower than I thought. I think I'm just in denial that I'm even hurt. Anyhow, I won't be able to visit many blogs today, and I regret that very much. Need rest though.
In the spirit of this blogfest, I'll post an entry from earlier this year, one that reminds me that even though I've been hurt and my day-to-day schedule has been temporarily disrupted, I have so much to be grateful for. Here it goes:
(3/14/2011)
It's supposed to snow in northern Japan.
As if the monster 8.9 earthquake and ensuing tsunami weren't enough, or the terrifying 400+ aftershocks -- some up to 7.0 on the Richter Scale, now search and rescue operations will be further hindered by snow. Temperatures will drop to the 20s and 30s, while whole communities have no electricity, or experience rolling blackouts, as experts scramble to avoid a nuclear meltdown disaster. My heart goes out to survivors of this horrific natural disaster.
Puts things in perspective, doesn't it? I've been wallowing in my creative slump for too long. Yeah, it sucks feeling blocked. But I'm warm. I'm not hungry, or thirsty. Everyone in my family is safe and accounted for.
Today, I'm grateful for all I have. But that just doesn't seem good enough, to me.
I will celebrate what I have. It's an honor to have a roomy, beautiful home to live in. Beginning today, I'm going to kick-start my trusted daily cleaning schedule. Monday is Power-Clean-the-Kitchen Day. Each day this week, I'll focus on another room in the house. By next week, the whole house will sparkle and I'll shift into daily maintenance mode. A house is shelter, but it's more than a building. It protects my family life, keeps us together and safe, healthy and happy. I'm grateful for it.
When I'm finished cleaning, I'm getting out of the house! Away from my computer, away from my blockages. Many of you suggested last week that I stop trying so hard to write, get outside, commune with nature, breathe. I'm driving to the Botanical Gardens in Athens. There's a great five mile nature trail that follows the Oconee River before wrapping around the wetlands that give rise to deciduous forests. I'm taking along fruits, nuts & raisins, and plenty of water. I'll have my camera and my journal. I'll celebrate my good health, my vitality, and the beautiful, powerful planet -- capable of supporting life...capable of whisking it away.
Today is about being grateful, celebrating blessings. And praying for those whose blessings lie on rubble.
What are you most grateful for?
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Holy Head Trauma
Saturday was a busy day full of Christmas shopping and fun, but it ended with a freak accident that landed me in the hospital.
I'd woken at 1am with a headache, so I got up to take a couple Tylenol. In the kitchen as I opened the pill bottle, a wave of nausea hit me like a brick to the head. It happened so fast, and the next thing I remember I was flat on the floor, blinking in the dark and very confused. I sat up in a mess and realized I had, in fact, been sick.
Disoriented, I woke up my husband and told him I was sick. I later learned I didn't mention to him for several hours that I'd passed out. I vomited four more times and was shivering cold. I was concerned that I was so sick, which is unusual for me, but when I realized I was losing blood-tinged fluid from my right ear, my husband and I got scared. He rushed me to the ER.
The ER doctor determined that I'd ruptured my ear drum when I fell on the floor. He ordered a CAT scan to be sure I didn't have any other injuries. I thought it was just a precaution and didn't expect them to find anything. After all, I didn't hurt anywhere; I was just so sick.
Imagine my shock when the CAT scan revealed I'd fractured my skull.
The bone behind my right ear cracked upon impact. Crazy!
I was emitted into the hospital as neurologists and cardiologists worked together to figure out why I passed out in the first place, and to be sure another episode didn't happen. I underwent many tests and learned some stuff about my physical self.
First, I have always suffered from Vasovagal Syncope. According to Mayoclinic.com: Vasovagal syncope (vay-zo-VAY-gul SING-cuh-pee) is the most common cause of fainting. Vasovagal syncope occurs when your body overreacts to triggers, such as the sight of blood or extreme emotional distress. The trigger results in vasovagal syncope — a brief loss of consciousness caused by a sudden drop in your heart rate and blood pressure, which reduces blood flow to your brain.
In the past, I've passed out from having my blood drawn and once, from just hearing the story of a friend whose appendix burst. But Saturday night was the first time I passed out from violent vomiting. I learned that can happen.
I underwent an EKG, which revealed I have Prolonged Q-T interval
Monday, December 5, 2011
Frustrated!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Hey you! Read This (please!)
I’m thrilled to welcome several new followers since the Déjà vu Blogfest sign-ups began. Blogging brings people together and I’ve found some wonderful friendships here on Blogger. That’s why I’m so sad when I can’t follow someone back.
Now, I have a personal follow-back policy. If someone finds my humble site interesting enough to follow, I want to extend the same kindness to him or her. The problem arises for me when I click a new follower’s picture on my Google Friend Connect mosaic and, alas! The person hasn’t linked his or her blog to their profile.
Am I describing you? Not sure?? Here’s how you verify:
Find your picture on my Friend Connect mosaic right now. (Or you can go to your own blog and under your About Me, click “View My Complete Profile.” Either action will bring up your Blogger Profile, as others see it. Is your blog linked under “My Blogs?”
If it isn’t, click “Edit Profile” (on left margin, under your profile picture). On the edit page, the third option under “Privacy” is “Show My Blogs.” Click “Select Blogs to Display.” (If you have several blogs that include family blogs, special interest blogs, etc. that you don’t want others to see, only choose your writing blog to display.) Be sure to save your changes.
It’s important to realize that Blogger doesn’t always default to linking your blog on your profile. It’s a great idea to verify that your blog is linked, so people like me can follow you back.
And don’t forget to enter the Déjà vu Blogfest! Click the link below the badge on my right sidebar to add your name to Mr. Linky’s list!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
NaNoWri(Lessons)Mo
(Article first appeared today in Writing.com’s Drama Newsletter, of which I am a contributing editor.)
NaNoWriMo will come to a close tonight for another year. Though I won't have a badge to display, saying I "won" by reaching the contest benchmark of 50,000 words in the month of November, I DO have a 25,000-word start to a brand-new novel that I'm very excited about. What's more important, I learned a lot about penning a first draft by taking part during the NaNo insanity.
NaNo is good for a writer like me. Typically, I brood over and revise each sentence before moving on to the next. My over-enthusiastic inner editor would argue that that approach is fine. And I tend to agree, when we're talking about writing short fiction. But when staring down the dark tunnel of novel writing, when only a pinprick of light is visible at its end, I'm the first to recognize that my painstaking approach to writing won't work. NaNo promotes writing fast drafts that force your focus forward. To win NaNo, you have to embrace the absolute separation between writing and revising.
There are a couple strategies I learned during NaNo to help a writer silence her inner editor and just write -- fast and furious -- with the intention of getting the first draft, in all its messy and creative glory, down on paper. And these ideas are not necessary for barfing out a first draft in one month. I will use these strategies throughout the year, no matter how long it takes me to write a draft.
Get outside your regular writing routine. If you write at a desk, try sitting on the floor. If you have a laptop, go outdoors to a park or a coffee house - someplace where you've never written before. I usually need quiet to write, but I tried playing Christmas music softly in the background one day. It made me feel instantly happy and relaxed, and I eked out an extra 700 words during that writing session.
Have your writing totem with you for every writing session. A writing toten is an object which inspires you or imbues you with inspired energy. It can be a figurine, a stuffed animal, a hat you wear, a picture or photo - anything! My writing totem is a small, solid brass figurine that looks a lot like Pumba from The Lion King. I bought him at a copper and brass artisan shop in France about ten years ago. It just looks happy and reminds me of good times. "Pumba" is small enough to sit on my laptop keyboard near where the top and bottom hinges together. When I feel stumped and want to stop writing, I look at him and remember my goals for the writing session. And his jolly belly and goofy stance remind me to have fun while I'm at it!
Challenge yourself to writing sprints. A writing sprint is a set short amount of time during which you refuse to let your fingers stop tapping those keys or your pen to lift from the paper. My favorite sprints are fifteen minutes long. (I find these are great practice for Leger~ 's "15 for 15 Contest " ) I am also a big fan of 1K-in-1Hr sprints (1000 words in an hour).
Find friends with which to stage write-ins. I did my first write-in a week and a half ago, and it was fabulous! Summer Frey lives a half hour from my house, and we get together every few weeks to hang out and talk writing-and-blogging shop. Since we were both doing NaNo this year, we decided to meet in a funky local coffee house for a five-hour write-in. We'd wish each other luck and hit the keys, for a while. At some point, one of us would need another cup of coffee or a bathroom break, and we'd stop for ten or fifteen minutes. We tweeted from our couches and updated our Facebook statuses, and laughed a lot. And I wrote 5000 words that day. 5000!
My inner editor feels like she's back from the spa, relaxed and muscle-knot-free. I may not have won NaNoWriMo, but the benefits I reaped from playing along this November made every minute of the crazy chaos worth it. I'll use these and other strategies while I finish my WiP, and for future drafts too.
What's your favorite strategy for powering through the first draft? Maybe you wear a certain shirt or pair of socks? Do you dangle reward-carrots in front of yourself for motivation? Something else?
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Deja Vu Blogfest Sign-ups!
Monday, November 14, 2011
How to Create a Custom Twitter Background
I created my background using Paint Shop Pro X2, but you can use Adobe Photoshop or any other similar software, as long as it supports both vector and raster layers.
Before I began, I thought about what kind of look I wanted to go for. Personally, I like color; I like my web sites to exude a cheerful, playful vibe. But I didn’t want to overwhelm with bright hues and busy prints, because I didn’t want the background to compete with the profile. I prefer light backgrounds with black print, as I find those the easiest to read.
I looked for a picture of me that was similar to my profile picture. (It’s a bit tongue-in-cheek that all my profile avatars are me, in profile.
Here is the finished product, and below are the steps I followed to create it:
Step 1: Layer One – The first layer in your PSP (or Photoshop, etc.) should measure 1440x800 pixels, which will be big enough to fill the screen of viewers with any size computer screen. (Note: I didn’t need to fill the entire 800 pixels in length, because on my computer screen the bottom section was lost off the bottom. Also as you design, keep in mind that about 760 pixels in the center of your plane will be covered up with your twitter profile columns. This means you will only be designing about 225 pixels wide on the left margin and about 300 pixels on the right margin. I realize that my math doesn’t add up – math sucks! But the original 1440x800 are just the dimensions you need to ensure you’ll fill the space on twitter. Based on your own computer screen, you’ll have to play around with spacing until it looks right, on your screen.)
I used a resolution of only 72 pixels/inch because it will be sharp but won’t slow down page uploads for people visiting your page who have slower processors or Internet connections. This first layer should be set as transparent.
Step 2: Layer Two -- I pulled up the photo I’d chosen and resized it to 215x230 pixels. I added a slim black border and then copied it. I pasted the photo as a new layer, atop Layer 1. I positioned the photo against the left margin, about an inch down from the top left corner. I double clicked the layer to pull up the Properties menu and clicked Layers, then added a drop shadow to the picture.
Step 3: Layer Three -- I added a new vector layer and opened a text box. I added my name in fancy font and beveled it with a blue overlay I pulled from the shirt in the photo. I added a drop shadow.
Step 4: Layer Four – I added another vector layer and opened a second text box. In it I added my original quote: “I write stories so I can live more lives than my reality would otherwise allow.” (Love that!)
Step 5: Layers Five thru Eleven – I used raster layers to add individual colored marbles over my photo and down the right margin. The marbles are simply picture tubes I sized the way I wanted. Placing each marble so that they appear in a straight vertical line was not easy on my laptop, since I don’t have a mouse yet and was working on the integrated mouse pad thing. Not easy!
Step 6: Based on the color scheme that had emerged in Steps 1-5, I clicked down to Layer 1 and used Flood Fill to wash the background with a soft, barely-there, dusty blue.
Step 7: (It’s a great idea to “Save Copy As…” at this point. This will save your image with all your layers maintained. DO NOT save the image and merge the layers! You won’t be able to edit individual layers once you’ve merged down and saved.) I exported a copy of the image and uploaded it to twitter.
(Never changed your twitter background? Here’s how: Go to your twitter feed. Click your name on the far right of the menu at the top. Click Settings. Click Design. Scroll down, and below the twitter themes, click Change Background Image. Click Choose File, and select your exported custom background image. Do not check Tile Background. Click Save Changes.)
Step 8: This step took me the longest. Adjusting your background to get the spacing of all the elements right takes a while. I had to move around elements from each layer, re-exporting and re-uploading to twitter over and over until I had the look I was aiming for.
Step 9: I used the Change Design Colors option on twitter’s design page to choose the colors for the profile background (where your tweets appear), text, links, sidebar, and sidebar border. Save Changes.
And that’s it! Now I have a twitter page that truly reflects me (at this moment in time…I’ll probably change it in the future!) better than any of the preinstalled themes available.
If we don’t follow each other on twitter, please friend me! I’m NicoleDwrites
See you over there!!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Testing, testing
So, I’m trying out the Windows Live Writer software on my new laptop. Apparently I can create blog post here and upload them to Blogger. Pretty cool, if I can get it to work.
If it works, I can use all kinds of funky fonts while writing my posts.
This would be a good thing, since I’m one of those crazy creatives who hates a constricted list of choices why she’s feeling, well, creative. <—What?? Emoticons, too? Yay!
Okay, going to see what this looks like on my blog. No need to comment, should you happen across this. Unless you use Windows Live Writer for your blog posts. In which case I’d love to hear what you think of it.
Friday, November 11, 2011
String Bridge Chart Rush!
I have read String Bridge and I highly recommend it. The writing is lush and poetically descriptive in this powerful, character-driven book. It will stir your emotions and, if you're like me, have you at different times in tears of sorrow and tears of joy. I say, it's a must-read for all.
Today, we're flooding the blogosphere with requests for your help. Let's see how high we can get Jessica's debut on the Amazon chart. If you're looking for your next great read, look no further. Pick up your copy of String Bridge today.
And remember that the holidays are right around the corner. Maybe you have a sister, mother, or friend who would appreciate String Bridge. I'm crossing names off my Christmas shopping list today!
Here are the links to get you on your ordering way :D
eBook:Amazon US: http://www.amazon.com/
Amazon UK: http://www.amazon.co.uk/
Paperback:
Amazon US: http://www.amazon.com/
If you're interested in ordering "Melody Hill, The Other Side," after today, here are the ordering links:
String Bridge Merchandise: http://www.
website: http://www.
blog: http://
facebook: http://www.facebook.com/
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/
retreat & workshop site: http://hwrw.blogspot.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
...a VLOG? Oh no, no, no, no!
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Jessica Bell, Interviewed
String Bridge Merchandise: http://www.
website: http://www.
blog: http://
facebook: http://www.facebook.com/
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/
retreat & workshop site: http://hwrw.blogspot.